Weigh in

I could blame it on TOM, or I could blame it on Valentine's chocolate, or the bad weather for not exercising, or so on and so on. But, those are just excuses for why I gained 1.4 pounds this week. I weighed in at 183.8 this morning. I set a goal to pass the 180 mark this past week, but failed. No excuses, just didn't do what I needed to do to reach that goal. I need motivation!!! I just don't have it. I think about lake season coming up, and swimsuits, and wanting to be skinny, but am just not motivated. I don't know what to do?! I love getting out and walking. It's not the problem. I have grown to hate the gym, and I just can't push myself to eat the way I should. We spent $193 last week at the grocery store. I bought a pretty good amount of healthy foods, and even made ww 0 point soup. What did i do? Let it spoil. The salad passed it's date, the soup sat in the fridge for a week untouched and the fruit is now brown and headed to the garbage can. What a waste of money. What a waste of a week I could have lost some weight. And yet in all honesty I still am not motivated. I need help guys! What can I do to get motivated?