Dresssssss

Like I have written about before, some of our very close friends are gettin hitched, =) and she has made me her matron of honor. Well I think we may have found the dress....

I love it. It is so pretty. She is still deciding on a color, probably blue.

So, here we go again.... MOTIVATION! 15 weigh in's until I have to order it. My ultimate goal for her wedding day (Oct. 8) is to lose 40 pounds (or be pregnant,lol) but we have to order the dress on July 2. So I would like to have at least lost 30 pounds by then. That's fifteen weigh in's at an average of 2 pounds a week. It's totally achievable, but my question to myself is "Heather, will you allow yourself to do it?"

My second question to myself is "Why haven't you worked harder?" I am miserable, nothing fits, I can't breathe, I can go on and on, but have I really worked as hard as I could, NO! Just point blank honest. I could try harder. I could do better, but why haven't I? I guess truly I just have not cared. I don't know how to explain it. I am miserable, yet I don't do anything about it. I have the motivation, but I don't chase it.

NO LONGER! The race is on. Either 40 or baby!!!!

Saying lot's of prayers and putting this in God's hands!!!

Weigh In

I had a point four gain this week, buuut.... Tom is here. :/ So I am very happy with this number. I know I should never be happy with a gain. I actually thought it would be more, but with Tom. So..yes I am! Plus it wasn't even half a pound. lol! I know it's just water weight. No worries!

Fishing Fun....

Hubby and went fishing yesterday afternoon. It was so much fun and relaxing. I love it.

We came home with only 3, but we got lot's of nibbles. Nothing wanted to grab on though.

Diet has gone pretty good this week. Working out has not. It's either one or the other, lol!

Wow...

It's been two weeks since I last posted. I weighed in last Saturday at a whopping 188 pounds (no pic). I was so disappointed in myself. I feel like every week I have to start over. I have an awesome week and then the next week I blow it. I am the yo-yo dieter at it's finest. I just was so determined to lose it. So, I won't go into any great detail but this last week has been very emotional and hard and blah blah blah, but again I was determined. I went to the gym twice and went to the park once and walked a few miles. Did I mention this was spring break, so I had the week off? Well it was, and with all the stress of life this week I told myself I was not gonna sit on my butt. So I made myself clean, and get out of the house, go shopping, even got a mani and pedi with my Momma, and decided not to sit on my butt. All of it paid off.... I weighed this morning at :

That is a loss of 1.8 pounds this week. I am back to what I was two weeks ago, before I gained what I did last week. I am still struggling with the food part of the diet. I make horrible choices. Hubby and I both talked the other night about how we both need to start eating better. He said that he knows it is his fault. I told him no, I could say no. We both had made bad food choices the last few weeks. If we want something we eat it, no matter what. So, as a family we are changing and I think that is what it is all about. It is hard for one person in a family to diet. It is not easy to sit down and eat grilled chicken if the other family members are eating it fried, etc.. So as a family we are going to become healthier. Yea!

P.S. I just got done walking three very hill-filled miles with my girl Brooke. Whew am I beat! ;)

So my wonderful friend posted this: on facebook. It is a picture of me reading to my class. Oh my gosh!!! I cannot believe how big I have gotten. I know I have gained, but oh my gosh! This is horrible!!!! I have got to lose this weight. I am so disgusted with myself. =(

On a different note, my anniversary is in 13 weeks. Hubby and I are already trying to decide what we are going to do. It will be here before I know it and I really want to be in the 150's by then. I know I can do it. We have mentioned the beach and there is no way I am getting in a swimsuit this size. NO WAY! I don't want to look like this on my anniversary. I am putting this picture on the fridge, in my car, as my computer background, etc., to remind myself to do great. YUCK!

Weigh In

Up again by 0.4 pounds....