Dresssssss

Like I have written about before, some of our very close friends are gettin hitched, =) and she has made me her matron of honor. Well I think we may have found the dress....

I love it. It is so pretty. She is still deciding on a color, probably blue.

So, here we go again.... MOTIVATION! 15 weigh in's until I have to order it. My ultimate goal for her wedding day (Oct. 8) is to lose 40 pounds (or be pregnant,lol) but we have to order the dress on July 2. So I would like to have at least lost 30 pounds by then. That's fifteen weigh in's at an average of 2 pounds a week. It's totally achievable, but my question to myself is "Heather, will you allow yourself to do it?"

My second question to myself is "Why haven't you worked harder?" I am miserable, nothing fits, I can't breathe, I can go on and on, but have I really worked as hard as I could, NO! Just point blank honest. I could try harder. I could do better, but why haven't I? I guess truly I just have not cared. I don't know how to explain it. I am miserable, yet I don't do anything about it. I have the motivation, but I don't chase it.

NO LONGER! The race is on. Either 40 or baby!!!!

Saying lot's of prayers and putting this in God's hands!!!